Friday, 31 July 2009

What I found out today. o84

I have found out that mostly the last minutes before something -- lifting up a veil, going on holiday, revealing the last answer to a question... -- are the most anxious ones!
It's the moment when you leave that certain familiar and let yourself go into the unknown.

Monday, 27 July 2009

What I found out today. o83

I found out lately about the Mayan calendar. More information can be found here yet for me it was absolutely amazing to participate in the celebration of the Day out of Time. Guess what -- the new year is the year of a yellow seed. If normally I would believe that every single day and single year is a key to your own new beginning and a great continuation of perceiving your dreams, this is yet another reason to think so.
And it's brilliant!

And, just to quote Oprah, cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right!

P.S. Just to share something that made me think and smile:

Wednesday, 22 July 2009

What I found out today.o082

There is this line in movie called "Meet Joe Black" which is "No regrets". It's absolutely important to always remember two simple things -- keep your eyes on the ball and never regret things. Yet do everything because you want it, you feel for it and you need it. Be honest. Be bold and be brave.

People usually loose balance and focus just because of that and just because they get sucked into the whole universe that is not necessary to be even thought of.
All in all,life is pretty simple. We only mess it up and complicate ourselves because we miss that point!

Thursday, 16 July 2009

What I found out today. o81

“Change is the law of life. And those who look only to the past or present are certain to miss the future.”

~ John F. Kennedy

Tuesday, 14 July 2009

What I found out today. o8o

I realise that after five years of not living in my motherland I grew more and more confused about the emotions that I get when I remember it. I get more and more in between of where I come from and where I actually am. Some kind of identity confusion if you may.

Today I found out that a law supporting homophobia has just been adopted. It actually scares me when I read the news more carefully. On the other hand, when I find things like that, it brings some kind of grey-ish funny nostalgic feeling to my stomach.

The more I think the more I realise that it's all about accepting. Accepting who you are and what you want to be. Where you come from is always going to be that place/space or idea. It's always going to be a part of you. It's where you decide to peregrinate from this very moment on.
And, yes, we all want to belong. To feel like we matter. To belong to an expensive golf club, knitting club, church, ideology, party, family, lover, book club, etc. yet what would you answer if I asked if you actually belong to yourself?!...

All time is all time. It does not change. It does not lend itself to warnings or explanations. It simply is. Take it moment by moment, and you will find that we are all, as I've said before, bugs in amber.
~Kurt Vonnegut, Slauterhouse V

Monday, 13 July 2009

What I found out today. o79

I like bold people. I really enjoy frank and honest ideas. I suppose things are sometimes easier to face when you can actually admit what is happening. I have noticed that sometime people do loose awareness. Awareness of life because they simply do try to either look too much within or just care too much about other opinions or the boxes that are there set by society. All those little and big square boxes.

"The joy of life consists in the exercise of one's energies, continual growth, constant change, the enjoyment of every new experience. To stop means simply to die. The eternal mistake of mankind is to set up an attainable ideal."
Aleister Crowley

I was asked yesterday if I trully believe that every person come to my life with a reason. And something actually made me think for longer at that point --- what would you say!?.. Is it always worth looking for a reason or is it only enough to enjoy the people.

We're undone by each other. And if we're not, we're missing something.
Judith Butler

Friday, 10 July 2009

What I found out today. o78

Today I realized that most of the things that happen while interacting with others is actually something we are trying to deal with and to handle within ourselves.
As well as other thing that makes me even more puzzled -- in search of Destiny you often find yourself in a big need to changing yourself, changing id
eas, places, thoughts, understandings, encounters, emotions. I found a thought yesterday about the change -- you don't change by solving your problems, you solve your problems by changing.

Change is often what we fear of. It's something we are so paranoid because we never know if it's going to be better than it is now. And, yes, it's true; it's always a leap of faith. Yet -- now I have learned it -- it's always worth it if you do it from your heart.


Thursday, 9 July 2009

What I found out today. o77

Life happens when you least expect it. I am constantly reminded I am loved. It's absolutely beautiful. It's beautiful because --- love is.

And then I learn things about reconciliation, friendship and relationship circles. I discover ideas I was so used to be running from -- ideas of patience, of looking through facts and words sometimes. Ideas of seeing through the heart.
And then it strikes me - it's about two choices. It's all about yes and no. You either choose to be happy or choose to be miserable; either full of ideas or numb; either able to remain calm or panic; either feel happy with what you've got or always moan about the lack of something; And the list goes on.

I have also learned about idea of letting go. About the same idea of farewell --

About the idea of, first of all for yourself, making ties easier to cut. Making promises and looking forward to the realisations.
I was born in a country that doesnt exist any more. I come from a country that not that people are actually heard of and yet I come with the things that can be universal for life --