Thursday, 25 February 2010
Thursday, 18 February 2010
"And finally I twist my heart round again, so that the bad is on the outside and the good is on the inside, and keep on trying to find a way of becoming what I would so like to be, and could be, if there weren't any other people living in the world."
Friday, 12 February 2010
I found out lately that sometimes the most complicated looking things end up being the most simple ones. I also remember Albert Einstein for that because he was always someone who wanted to put the biggest theories into the shortest formula's.... And, indeed, E=mc2.
He also said: "Most of the fundamental ideas of science are essentially simple, and may, as a rule, be expressed in a language comprehensible to everyone."
I figure - it's all up to us and how complex we want to have it.
"I suddenly realized that in the language, or at any rate in the spirit of the Glass Bead Game, everything actually was all-meaningful, that every symbol and combination of symbols led not hither and yon, not to single examples, experiments, and proofs, but into the center, the mystery and innermost heart of the world, into primal knowledge. Every transition from major to minor in a sonata, every transformation of a myth or a religious cult, every classical or artistic formulation was, I realized in that flashing moment, if seen with truly a meditative mind, nothing but a direct route into the interior of the cosmic mystery, where in the alternation between inhaling and exhaling, between heaven and earth, between Yin and Yang, holiness is forever being created."
~ H. Hesse "The Glass Bead Game"
Wednesday, 10 February 2010
"Insanity is knowing that what you're doing is completely idiotic, but still, somehow, you just can't stop it."
~ E. Wurtzel
I once read in my very wise book that "Tears are a river that takes you somewhere…Tears lift your boat off the rocks, off dry ground, carrying it downriver to someplace better" and yet sometimes I wonder -- is it always really so?!..
What if all you do is start sinking?
What if your black hole doesnt have such tangible bottom all in all?!...
But we are so beautifully amazing that we try and try. And even if we fail, we try again. Fail again. Fail better. Try better. Again and again.
Monday, 8 February 2010
Today I am finding out yet again new things about balancing on your identity and wondering wondering if you ever can stay with something as unmeasurable and complex as your own identity and self understanding.
It was said once by Chuck Palahniuk: "If you wake up at a different time, in a different place, could you wake up as a different person?"
Most of the time we are taught to deny who we are, taught to fit in and become someone else or idea of someone else. I think I was always struggling with that because the longer you do that, the more complicated it is to remember who you actually are and to allow yourself to be.
And yet, even when you have the space and the guts to be who you are, how do you define everything?! How do you got with all the little details, all the aspects and shadows forming something that in the end shines are you?!...
I am still struggling, I must admit. I don't expect to find all the answers. Soon or ever actually. It's like opening a can of worms -- interesting, scary, challenging, rewarding and still the end confusing. In the end, it's also a process. Identity is in its making. It's walking your path and being aware.
And then again -- its also never forgetting to breathe and how to have fun with your life. No matter what kind of background forms you or what kind of environment surrounds you -- it's all up to you how you deal with it and how many smiles, hugs, ideas, words, dreams you make and share!
Thursday, 4 February 2010
Today I found out about trust, about ability to hear and inclination to listen. And once again about the fact that the world of the words can be such a confusing place to be...
Therefore I try it slowly, with tender respect. Especially for these words are not my native language.
I am also learning about intent. Certain people have a way of saying things that shake us at the core. Even when the words do not seem harsh or offensive, the impact can be shattering. What we could be experiencing is the intent behind the words. When we intend to do good, we do. When we intend to do harm, it happens. What each of us must come to realize is that our intent always comes through.
Its as challenging as absolutely amazing -- we are what we think...
if I have burned my bridges, I would walk on water.
Tuesday, 2 February 2010
"Humans are multi-dimensional spiritual beings, living in a multi-dimensional universe…As the Sufis say, w human beings live in a many-storied mansion, but have occupied the ground-floor for so log, we have forgotten even the existence of the higher realms."
p. 59-60 of Alchemical Divination, Ralph Metzner, Ph.D.