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What I found out today. o114

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There is this exercise I learned once in Italy that is used by actors in order to explore your subconscious insides. I sometimes remember it and wonder.. How many coincidences there are in your life and how many things you actually bring to yourself. I do believe somehow that there are things that I cannot control, but other things do fall under the jurisdiction. I can decide how to spend my time, whom to interact with, whom to share my body and life and money and energy with. I can select what I can read and eat and study. I can choose how I'm going to regard unfortunate circumstances in my life-whether I will see them as curses or opportunities. I can choose my words and the tone of voice in which I speak to others. And most of all, I can choose my thoughts.

What I found out today. o113

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What I found out today. o112

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There are many things in life that you must learn over and over again. Like walking. And somehow in those moments you don't really care you've done it before, it comes to you again and it feels as exciting as it was before. Or even more! Even Hemingway said, " All my life I've looked at words as though I were seeing them for the first time. " There is always more than meets the eye. There is always more than we dare to admit. And it's amazing. Amazing to challenge your own limitation and your own walls (either way if they are walls in or walls out). Amazing things happen to you when you let them happen. When you walk right into the room full of unknown people and don't feel fear. I am learning to accept chaos. (Although I am not entirely sure whether it accepts me.) I have learned lately that any kind of fear might be just worthy to walk straight into. It's like playing a computer game only not being as reckless! Although I dont think that death is th

What I found out today. o111

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There was a time in my life where I learned a very important lesson. There was a time I learned that by loosing everything I had so much more left. So much more to see, to treasure and to be. I was remembering today those days when we were once kinds, when we use d to build up some amazing things out of any simple daily objects and it would make us happiest people in the world. We would build castles, space ships, even countries and new galaxies and then once mother would call for dinner we would as easily dismount it all again to be ready for something else next time. I wonder, wasn't it much easier then to learn same lessons of letting go. I don't remember much of my childhood. Probably since the time they cut my wings but I do remember that then it was so much easier to who you really are in that moment -- a performer, Cleopatra, a pilot of a space ship, a hunter, a doctor, a princess... even if until dinner time or for a moment. And therefore I keep remembering that growi

What I found out today. o11o

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New year is said to be for new hopes, new mountains to climb, new ideas and all that. How do you know you are ready for it?! How do you know new stuff isn't just refurnished old stuff? And it makes me smile in the end because we are all suckers for big great new years resolutions, new years hopes and even if it doesnt work, we look forward to yet another new year to come. Don't we?!... P.S. Saint Anthony said, in his solitude, he sometimes encountered devils who looked like angels, and other times he found angels who looked like devils. When asked how he could tell the difference, the saint said that you can only tell which is which by the way you feel after the creature has left your company.